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A National Guard who aimed his musket at Enjolras, lowered it and said: "I feel as though I'd be shooting a flower."
~Victor Hugo, Les Miserables, 1976 translation.

WHY SO MANY TRANSLATIONS PEOPLE? I have a recent one (idk like, 2000's I suppose) and an old one from the 70's. I bought the old one cheaply to cut it up and draw on and things but...but...HAVE YOU TRIED? LIKE I JUST CAN'T. It's just sat on my bookshelf behind my bed, and I read it from time to time, not knowing where I am with my other one. Tbh, I don't read it in order anymore. I know what's going to happen, so I was REALLY tempted just to read scenes. THE FEELS ARE TOO MUCH TO HANDLE. I suppose it would have been even more effective if I had read it all first but...REBELLION.

So, I've been crying a lot recently (Nevermind why, just leave it please. I think you're wonderful if you want to help but, I'm fine, but thanks you Lamarque-able (lol) people xx) and I'm absolutely exhausted. It's 11:20 now so I set myself a maximum of 12. I'm used to being up until about 2...on a school night. I cried buckets on Monday and I think I'm dehydrated from it b/c I just keep drinking and drinking (juice of course. don't worry, I'm not falling down the Grantaire route.) Like, whoa, how does that even happen? Plus, this crusty stuff has started appearing over my eyes when I wake up. I've had it before, only much worse. But, not sure why it's come back. It's so gross. But, as I inteded to say, I've not been doing a lot and gave up drawing a few days ago. I've come back to it and managed to scribble some Enj down. (Fun fact: It started off as Javert, of course)

BUT ANYWAYSSSS. I'm treating this Deviation as my journal, sorry!

Comment and fave and eat and fangirl and smile and yeah... kissies! xx

PS: IN MY LAST YEAR OF SCHOOOOOLLLLLLLL. AWW SWEET LAWD JESUS I THANK YOU.